On their way to China Town, they pass an area with red curtained massage parlors and hookers pacing the streets in tight clothes. They stop at a red light behind a BMW. A hooker approaches its curbside window, talks to the driver, and then hops in. Ved notices Liz shaking her head in what appears to be disapproval.

'Consenting adults!' he provokes her.

'You don't need to tell me that,' she says sharply.

'Why the disapproval then?'

'Because it is so sad. I just wish these women had other options.'

'Maybe they do. I doubt they are doing this against their will, at least not in San Francisco.'

'Just because they do this, quote-unquote, voluntarily, doesn't mean they do it because they are happy to. It's because they don't recognize other options. Or they are addicted to abuse, or full of self-loathing and given to self-destruction.' Her voice bristles. 'It doesn't mean they like it, or choose it with a healthy frame of mind.'

'But if they do it voluntarily, can we say we know better? Who should be allowed to save people from themselves? So many others don't like their jobs either, or choose them with a healthy frame of mind. I have met—'

'I know that line of reasoning,' she sighs heavily, 'but taking a job flipping burgers is not quite comparable to letting a horny customer finger your private parts.'

'But many still choose the latter. They may not want to be saved, or pitied as victims of exploitation.'

'Listen,' she raises her voice, 'I don't know what the solution is,' she throws her hands up. 'I just wish things were different, OK? All I'm saying is that prostitution springs from socioeconomic disadvantage and serious emotional problems. And it exploits women weakened by their circumstances.'

'But prostitution will be around whether or not we like it. All we can do is try to minimize the crime and abuse and diseases associated with it, and treat it like a regular services sector job, as they do in parts of Europe.'

'Yes, I also believe in legalization. I think it's better for the women.' She resumes after a pause, her voice charged with emotion, 'At the end of the day, I guess, for me it really comes down to how each of us projects our sexual power in the world, and the kind of world it creates. What bothers me most about prostitution, to put it bluntly, is the way men approach sex.'

He looks at her quizzically. She continues, 'I might as well tell you right now that this is my hot-button issue—a personal hang-up—that sex ought to be shared respectfully. I think these women must die a little bit every day. Do you know what it is like dealing with foul manipulation, degrading language, being reduced to a mere sex toy by strangers, and even by men whom one has known and trusted? Do you know what it feels like to be used? Let me tell you: you don't, you can't, because you are a man.'

He wants to say: we all have different thresholds of desecration and violation, your own thresholds are not universal. You are rashly conflating paid sex with disrespect. Even in conventional unions—lovers, husbands and wives—payment for sexual favors, negotiated a lot less openly, occurs in other forms. At least this is more honest and clear-cut. But he remains silent. He cannot dispel the whiff of a loophole in his reasoning.

Without warning, she begins to sob. He is dismayed by this development. He wasn't expecting tears on their second date. Who knows what history provokes this? He stretches his right arm and gently squeezes her shoulder. 'Come, come, that's not allowed.'

'I am sorry,' she pulls a napkin from her bag, wipes her eyes, and then blows her nose into it. 'With some men, even I have felt like I am beheld by eyes that belong to another kind of creature, who can't see me in here. They only see what they see, which is not nearly who I am. I am a means to their sexual ends. Women have sexual needs too, you know, why can't men control themselves like we do? Why do they have to be so cavalier, so ...?'

Unthinking, preying, sordid. he silently shuffles the words. Why expect better? From a step below the angels, weren't men relegated long ago to a step above the apes? So too were women. Both fallen deeper, with none left above to lend a helping hand.

But at times, the nature of men troubles him a lot more than the nature of women. He recently dwelled on the fact that each day so many men rape women, that a huge number of women out there will be raped at least once. For the first time recently, this vividly at any rate, he tried to imagine himself inside the mind of a rapist, watching closely how it operated—creative empathy one might say. And it made him afraid and full of revulsion for his sex. Such cruelty lurking just beneath the skin of men!

She resumes in the vicinity of China Town, 'I don't know how to defend this rationally, but I would feel emotionally unsafe with a lover who has frequented prostitutes. In a very personal, visceral way, I would feel hurt by the knowledge, somehow, knowing full well that it had nothing to do with me.' When he glances at her she is quietly staring out the window.

'I'm glad you're not like that,' she adds.

            Not like what? Like the man in the BMW? He does not ask.

 

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